-The story starts with Murdoc sleeping in his bed, he's still dirty of smoke of the fire of the last night. He wakes up cause Fade is taking a shower.
When she finishes, he takes a shower too, while Fade is sitting on the couch staring at the vaacum. She looks very sad about what happened.
Murdoc gets dressed and he decides to talk about it to Fade who, contrarily, seems don't want to talk at all.
Murdoc tries to enter in the argument in easy way.
"Don't tell me you're upset about last night" he says to her "You know you shouldn't trust people you know.. and you even don't know me that well!"
She doesn't reply, so he goes on "Well at last you gained something! Did you liked it?"
Fade seems not happy at all "Well, actually I can't remember anything about our..."
"ANYTHING? Come on! How many times did you come?" he insists making Fade starts for the shame.
Fade gets back to her bad humor but, finally, she starts talking about what happened "I feel awful! I had my first time and I don't remember anything about it! Even the face of him! Who assure me that was really you? Knowing you" she continues "you could have invented everything and make me couple with an ape!!"
Murdoc stares at these words... then he blows in a big laugh!
Fade is upset "OMMY!! Now he tells me that's true!!" she says to herself!
"Don't worry about that Fade" he explains her "you were so drugged that you believed everything! Nothing happen between us! Everything was just a simulation!"
Fade now feels so stupid! "You mean..." She hardly says "..that I.. I am.. still a... a..."
Murdoc helps her words "Let's say that if I'm going to another Satanic sect, I still can ask you to join!"
"I don't think so!!" Fade shouts very hurted in her pride!
Murdoc doesn't react well to her answer, he doesn't reply by words, he just smash Fade back on the couch by his arm.
He knows he has powers on her and he wants make her understand who's the one in charge there.
He sits on Fade's legs, keeping her still against the couch
"So tell me how you can avoid me to do it" he questions her "You don't want leave this place, there's no way I can get rid of you, so I can drug you wathever I want and have my little virgin ready to celebrate the Almight Satan! How can you prevent all this!!"
Fade wants react some way, but as soon as she looks at Murdoc's eyes, these eyes that seems have control on her, she feels she can't do anything to avoid it.
Fade just lows the sight giving up.
Murdoc looks at her in different way, now. He understands that the girl under his hands has something more deep to discover, so he decides to do it.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING???" Fade shouts while Murdoc has already his hands under her shirt.
"I'm solving our problems" He simply replies passing his hands on her skin
"YES???" She says not totally sure.
"Yes!" She now agrees as Murdoc starts kissing her neck
In Fade's head lots of confusonary thoughts starts multiplying
"What am I doing?" she askes herself while she's taking off her shirt "I can't control my emotions..."
Now Fade feels very unarmed at Murdoc's behaviour "My heart is violent pulping, I can't breath and I'm trembling" she thinks as she feels Murdoc's lips lightly pass on her breast "...and I like it...".
"Let's move to the bedroom, shall we?" Murdoc asks already knowing the answer.

"Yes".

They reach the room while in Fade's mind the questions are overloading
"Maybe he's jocking me, as usual..."
But not, this time it's different, he's unbuttoning her trousers.
"What's up, freaks?" Murdoc asks noticing she's confused "Don't worry I know what to do! Here, sit on the bed!" He pushes her down on his bed
"Now let's think to these fucking skates!" He lows to untie Fade's rollerblade, while she is getting very anxious about the situation that escaped from her control.
Suddenly she starts "MY KNIFE!!!" she thinks grabbing her weapon from the holder placed on her belt. "If he sees it, he will throw me out and I'll keep my virginity forever!"
She throws the knife away just a moment before Murdoc stands up in front of her
"What the hell were you doing? You didn't stop a second, while I was taking off these fucking skates!!!"
"Nothing!" she replies with a liar smile on her face "There was a fly and I threw a shoe to it!"
"Listen up!" he says with very powerful voice "I want to arrive at the end with you, I'm not jocking!" From these words Fade finally understands she has no choose
"Stand up!" Murdoc says while he starts taking off his shirt
Fade obeys.
"I start being afraid..." she lowly says
"Why? You still haven't see anything!" Murdoc says unbottoning his trousers

Fade takes off her slacks
"What's that?" Murdoc askes as he sees a big scar on Fade's left leg "That's huge, how did you get it?"
"When I was chld I liked playing with knifes!" is the answer
"Bad kid! Let me see how much rascal you still are" he says pushing her back to the bed and throwing himself on her.

It's the moment, she can't go back now, she is on the bed, naked, and Murdoc on her. He knows what is going to happens, she doesn't at all.
"Relax, let me show you how to use this!" Murdoc says showing her a condom

"Good, this way" he reassures Fade while she's trying doing her best to put it on without making mess! "There are other ways to put it on, you know?" he says having fun seeing her face turning red! "Come on, don't blush, just wait a little more..." he says to give her time to relax, but he's tricking cause suddenly he decides to enter in action taking Fade by surprise.
The confusion starts fading to the pain, Fade feels it growing from inside while Murdoc goes on. "Let me know, are you still a teenger?" he askes as he would care.
Now the pain is unberable to her, Fade shouts "NOOOO!!! NOOOOOO!!!"
"That's the reply I wanted to hear" he evily says "Now shut up!"
Murdoc shuts her mouth with his, she can't rebels she can just wait the pain will pass, and suddenly it does. She feels a new sensation now and she hugs Murdoc and kisses him back.

When everything is done, they look at each other, they listen at their deep breath and they feel their wet skin.
"Was it so bad? "Murdoc askes "I know I'm a pain for the first timer, but welcome to the club of the unvirgin!"

Murdoc gets off from her turning at his bedside table
"Alright" he says "Now I'm having a cig, while you're sleeping on the couch!"
Fade stands up "Uh?"
He turns at her like nothing happened "Hey ragamuffin, we've got a deal: I sleep on my bed, while you sleep on the couch! Don't tell me you think the things would change just because we had a bang!"

"No..."

She silency leaves the room, she doesn't complain about it... he is right after all.
Fade lays on the couch trying to sleep, but she can't.
There's something she keeps thinking about, that doesn't allow her to get rest

"My first time..."




"...with a man that I don't love..."

END